3/22/2002 Blue Heron Day

 This is a day that began my refinding my own inner power, who I am and why I am here and what my purpose is.

         Last night, in the middle of the fierce rainstorm, just past midnight, I threw a great I-Ching reading.  I say great, because even though I threw four changing lines, the reading was so clear that a great message was sent to me by Grandfather / Grandmother.  I threw 58, with lines 2, 3, 4, &  6 changing.  The Changing-to Ching was 37.  This reading told me that I was spending time with people holding me on the Cliff, that I was hurting myself by doing so, and that I needed to bite through to the next level.  All details were right-on and welcome, because I was searching hard last night. As I reflected back on the people I spent time with over the last seven years since emerging from the inner depths of karma, I had to agree.  I need to spend time with those on the path in tune with my approach and who stand before life with the same intensity to see the deeper truths as I try to, no matter the color or fragrance.

         My body grows stronger as when I was 26, reaching a new level today.  This morning, I discovered a way to vibrate loosen and heat the body chakras.

         This coincided with a search for letting go of the past and rekindling who I am in the world.  Last night I played the grand piano at the Blue Sky Lodge, where my office/cave resides, with more freedom, power and truly full of my spirit again, after a long night walking the relationship cleansing/purifying route since leaving behind what has past.

         Last night and this morning I did a nutrient loading regimen and when I worked out with weights this afternoon, it seemed my upper body moved in a more balanced and powerful way than ever before. I have had a limited movement of arms and shoulders and that, after working on it for twelve years, seems to have reached a new level.  I did shoulders workout and the weights lifted so strongly and extended easily and so fully.  The feeling is powerful.

         Then I drove to Point Lobos just after a protracted rainstorm, the sky dark and cloudy with sun breaking through here and there.  Because of that, few visitors were on the path.  The movement of the run was also much more powerful and balanced than usual. The sky was beginning to rain amid sun and deep, rolling, dark storm clouds, passing with sun on each side, but massive.

         Rounding a corner, right in front of my line of sight, but off the path ahead, was a Blue Heron standing there quite peaceful. I stopped dead in my tracks, or should I say alive!

         She stayed there, walking gently a step or two, carefully picking her way.  I have been running Point Lobos for 17 years and have never seen a heron anywhere near this spot. 

I knew she was here to teach me, and I asked her what message she brings.  Taking her time, she transmitted her lesson by her Being and the way she moved.

         "Balance," she said, as I watched her step with long legs, perfect in balance, though slow-motion, freezing then moving a bit more. "Bring your body back in balance."

         "How?" I asked.

         "Through Innocence," she replied.  "Let your body become like a baby again. Let the energy move through you and let the spots you have been holding for so long, relax."  So I let my stomach and PC relax and invited my energy to move freely once more, where it wished to take me.

         For a long time, we stood there in complete innocence, letting the world flow through us, love us, without blocking that love out.

         My body began to chill and so I turned back on the path and jogged around her. All the while, I kept my attention on her.  She did not fly away.  She kept repeating: "Innocence, Innocence, Innocence."

         As I ran, cold rain came and went, light but spirited.  The words turned into a mantra.  

"Be Healthy, Be Happy, Be Whole…  Come into Balance again.”